12-16-25

Vibrations in my vision;
Weakness, spinning;
Oh god, the familiarity;
Everything is a memory

Pre-syncope on the floor of the library,
Heart skipping, consciousness slipping,
Shaking as I regained sight

Everything is a memory,
Small and scared

Every best effort failed;
Evidence blatant, inescapable;
Nausea and panic;
Only one thought to return to

A memory,
Forgotten partially

Your blood sitting patiently,
Looking up at me,
My heart racing;
Bandaging you, taking care of you,
Hoping that I could heal a wound we couldn't see

Do you remember?
How it felt to be close to me
If I could let you

Do you remember?
The things you said to me:
Your praise, your grief, your accusations

Everything is something else:
A picture, an instinct

Laying in the center of my bed,
My body pressed into the corner;
Coaxing something out,
Something I couldn't control;
Our confusion
I remember

This life is unrecognizable;
This life is remembered
Somewhere,
Everywhere